the start of a resolution

one of my new year's resolutions was to begin my writing again. it's an incredibly therapeutic activity for me, and it's something i enjoy- i think a lot of the stress that has accumulated in me over the months could be relieved if i found another outlet to release it.

this year marks a very strange point in my life right now. i graduate from COB next semester with a degree in hand, which now means that i have to cast my thoughts to what happens after that. there's jobs to look at, and colleges to apply to and pick. and now, i can't procrastinate- i have to buckle down and just do it.

not to mention all the art projects i have to undertake- personal, assignments and requests- things that will prove to myself that i belong in this community as a capable artist- and god knows my confidence is lacking, contrary to what people see. i've never felt so daunted, insignificant and scared in my life.

all i have going for me now is my conviction that this path i chose against all odds and pitfalls is truly my raison d'etre. so all i can do now, is move forward, until i am where i saw myself being so many years ago- victorious.